Emotions

Since we've been told about Noahs problems its safe to say we've been on a roller coaster of emotions. 

The logical part of me correctly says that it may only be temporary and with help he should catch up with everything and that there are worse things to have. 

The emotional side of me feels as though a bombs gone off in my head.  One minute I can make jokes...mainly to make others feel better....then I am in turmoil.  I look at my beautiful little man and I feel my heart break all over again.  The unspoken questions are always there, just below the surface.  What will he be able to do if he doesn't gain sight, how will I be able to help him cos I really just don't know how to, will he go to a normal school, will he have friends, how can I protect him when he gets older, is this my fault???  A million questions waiting to be asked and no answers. 

And then I get a grip, and I look at my gorgeous little boy and I am thankful that he is here and I know he is surrounded with love and we will all do what we can to make his life full and happy whatever the situation.